Prompt: Martin had always worried about his sexual preferences (not only his homosexuality, but also his fantasies about being a sub) and never acted on them. On the contrary, he always tried not to think about them too much. Until one day, someone (maybe a therapist on a online forum?) suggests that keeping a written record of his fantasies might prove helpful to familiarise with them and stop feeling ashamed. Feeling rather hopeless, he decides to give it a try - and that’s how he realises that all his fantasies have Douglas in them. As he keeps writing he realises that he’s not only been attracted to his first officer for ages (that he had suspected), that he’s also quite in love with him. They have become very close, with Douglas being almost sweet at times, but it is understood that they’re just friends.
Then, one day, Martin gets completely drunk and Douglas has to bring him home. As the captain crashes on his bed and falls asleep at once, Douglas notices the open diary on the desk. He reads it, barely shifting position (and feeling utterly aroused), then takes a long look at Martin, puts the diary down, and walks away making up his mind to do something about it at the first opportunity.
Bonus points (LOTS of them) if Douglas already fancied Martin but had never realised Martin felt that way toward him.
Sexual Fantasy Diary
Martin had always worried about his sexual preferences (not only his homosexuality, but also his fantasies about being a sub) and never acted on them. On the contrary, he always tried not to think about them too much. Until one day, someone (maybe a therapist on a online forum?) suggests that keeping a written record of his fantasies might prove helpful to familiarise with them and stop feeling ashamed. Feeling rather hopeless, he decides to give it a try - and that’s how he realises that all his fantasies have Douglas in them. As he keeps writing he realises that he’s not only been attracted to his first officer for ages (that he had suspected), that he’s also quite in love with him. They have become very close, with Douglas being almost sweet at times, but it is understood that they’re just friends.
Then, one day, Martin gets completely drunk and Douglas has to bring him home. As the captain crashes on his bed and falls asleep at once, Douglas notices the open diary on the desk. He reads it, barely shifting position (and feeling utterly aroused), then takes a long look at Martin, puts the diary down, and walks away making up his mind to do something about it at the first opportunity.
Bonus points (LOTS of them) if Douglas already fancied Martin but had never realised Martin felt that way toward him.
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